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Okay, well here's the ending. Kinda short, I know. But I'm still thinking about writing a sequel.
Title: The Darkness Inside the Light
Need I say more.
Okay, just ignore the post two entries ago. It got screwed up cause I didn't know what the hell I was doing. Here's chapter 2.
Yes, that's right, I'm back, even though no one really cares. So here's the deal. I'm gonna start posting my previous fanfics here in my journal as well as on vam so all my readers can come here to read them if they wish. So here goes.
Again, a big thanks to all who reviewed. Sorry about the wait, but I've been really busy this weekend. Anywayz, here's chapter three along with links to the previous chapters.
Ok,I got interupted last time, but now I'm taking more quizzes.   What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results)  Uniqueness- Your inner power is Uniqueness! You are very different from everyone around you, and you like it that way. In fact, youd be furious if you were anything else. To the world outside you are a buoyant, fun loving person, and are probably pretty popular. Yet deep down you feel the urge to be accepted as who you are, and desperately want someone who is truly there for you. You are very indecisive and change your mind regularly over just about anything. Youre very opinionated, and bulldoze over anyone who doesnt share your views. At times you can be very depressed, though few people realise it with your animated personality. You are great fun to be around, and enjoy shocking people with your out there views and beliefs. At times however, your urge to be different can work against you, as people dont often enjoy their ideas of right and wrong having any shades of grey. But dont let them get to you; youre an awesome person who many love. You have no doubt heaps of friends, but dont always have that close friend/s that you want and need. You strive to be accepted for who you are, and are protective and loyal to those who earn your trust. Although at times you think there may be no one there, look around. There is someone in the shadows who desperately wants to be your friend, who maybe you just havent noticed. Dont let anyone get you down, youre the one who gives this boring world excitement and culture. Keep it up! Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: Someone different and independent. Someone who isnt your typical male/female, who can accept that not everything has to be black and white, and yes, there are many, many shades of grey. Your stone/jewel: Amethyst Your power: Difference/Change. This is the ability to make a difference in the world, to create new ideas and opinions, and to open up the minds of others to show that there is more than one shade of grey. Your element: Electricity/Lightening A quote that applies to you: "Id much rather to be hated for who I am than loved for who Im not." Take this quiz!  Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code Where was your soul born?[pics + detailed answeres]  Your soul was born in the Ocean.The true daydreamer. Your element is Water. You're calm and collected, just like Earth, but unlike Earth you love to daydream. You love to create a world of your own and just drift away in daydreams. You observe but you rarely interfere. You don't like large crowds, but you have a few friends and you're not afraid of making more as long as you don't have to take the first step. You're careful to pick your words and you hate to hurt people. You are very easily hurt yourself and if someone harms you or your friends in any way, you will probably never trust that person again. You need to face the world. You can't hide in your dreams forever. Don't give up just because something didn't go as you planned! More chances will come. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code Which MCR member are you? (restored pics)  Gerard Arthur Way. G.Way (born April 9, 1977) of Newark, New Jersey (later of Belleville, New Jersey) is frontman and co-founder of the band My Chemical Romance and brother to bandmate Mikey Way (bass).Way drew the cover art of the band's second album, Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge, having graduated in 1999 with a Bachelor of Fine Arts from the School of Visual Arts in New York City. He then spent the next few years trying to work as a comic book artist before finally settling with Funhaus, a company which designed and sculpted Marvel Comics action figures for preschoolers.[1]In 2001, Way was trying to sell an animated television series to the Cartoon Network called The Breakfast Monkey about a Scandinavian flying imp who harnessed a special power called Breakfast Magic, allowing him to create and manipulate an assorted menu of breakfast food. (Cartoon Network turned down the pitch because they already had a food-related show in production, Aqua Teen Hunger Force.) Discouraged and wanting to move his life in a new direction, he found himself motivated to form the band less than a week after 9/11.[2]Let's not forget to rate! What Resides in Your Soul? (Anime pics, Accurate Results!!)  Depression resides in your soul! You are often sad, and feeling alone. You may be very critical of your self, maybe overly critical. You need to loosen up. You have people that care about you, but you seem indifferent. Your views of the world are different, not nessicarly bad, but real. You like to dream and get away from this world. You are creative and often turn to music to express yourself. On love, someone, most likely a friend, cares about you so deeply that they think about you each day. This person may be shy and quiet about it, but if you look, you may catch them gazing at you in school/work. When someone compliments you, you pretend to be indifferent, but it really makes you very pleased. If you try to open up, usually people laugh and say you are crazy. This is why you usually keep to yourself. Just remember, someone goes to bed each night thinking of you. Congratulatuions, and please rate!! ^^ ((P.S. This result was dedicated to my friend, the same friend the quiz is dedicated too.)) Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code Reflections of the Spirit?  You reflect the sadness of the spirit. You have been wronged by life and are troubled by spirit's journy, yet find strength in this. This is a temporary reflection and once time has past you will find that you have a new reflection and show others that they too can rise above their depression. Please rate high ;-) Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What type of beauty do you possess? (20 questions + 7 results + pretty pics)  DEFIANT BEAUTY - You are unique, original, and an individual. You are also courageous and ambitious. You are not afraid to take risks if it means you will gain something. You thrive on success and praise. You are a non-comformist and prefer to do things your own way. You also like to work by yourself rather than with a group. Your ultimate goal is to reach true success in whatever your chosen field is. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What Kind of School Girl Are You? {Anime Pics in Results}  You are a Depressed school girl! You couldnt care less about life, school, or anything in your world. You often sit alone in your room and ponder why you are on this earth, and what your purpose is. You dont socialize, and if you do, it is only with people who share your same views about "life" and "destiny". You tend to badmouth a lot, and you are not shy about expressing your negativity to others, and you dont take any bull off of anyone. You are just a lone wanderer looking for some sort of answers to your questions, and until then, the darkness is your only companion. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What Type of Person Are You? [pictures + detailed results]  The pessimist - The whiner
Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What are You?! (Demon, Angel, Elf, exc.) ((Anime Pics))  You are a Demon! You are frightening, evil, but so entrancing. You spend most of your time plotting the downfall of others. Congratulations! Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What is your element?  You are DARKSomethings that represent you:a tortue chamber, blood Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What does your mind look like? (Cool Surreal PICS)  You are: On the edge of Insanity. Your mind has been pushed to its limit, and you just can't take the stress anymore! Be careful that you're not pushed completely over the edge... Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code If Your Heart Were a Person What Would It Look Like?(Girl pics, sorry guys)  Your heart would be sad and teary eyed. You feel lonely and depressed. You cry a lot or have gotten past feeling. People wonder: why so sad? Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What is wrong with me? post a comment
Yeah, I'm bored.
Today's the day before my 18th birthday so I'm relaxing. But, I felt like taking a bunch of quizzes.
Well, here I am waiting for class to start. I decided to take that summer course after all. And since I haven't updated in a while, umm graduation went ok, Ricky wrecked his car and he's ok but his car is a piece of shit, and my birthday is Friday. Yeah, that's right, I'll be 18-FINALLY!!! Too bad I can't move out yet. Yeah, that and my dad and I are going on vacation next weekend to Erie, PA. Yay! Oh yeah, and I've updated my fanfics once or twice since the last time I updated this thing. Now, I g2g cause class is starting any minute. post a comment
Yes, life is still way too busy, and it still sucks. The play is Wednesday-Saturday, and tonight is our last dress rehearsal. And then Sunday, Ricky tells me that he actually died once which freaked the hell outta me. Apparently, he had a really bad migraine at the exact time of his grandfather's death. He said he saw the whole light at the end of the tunnnel thing and then he saw his dead grandparents, and they told him to tell the rest of his family that everything's ok. Meanwhile, he was passed out for two hours and no one took him to the hospital. Anyway, after what he saw, he woke up. I'm like really scared that it's gonna happen again cause he has migraines all the time. I love him so much, and I'd kill myself if he died. But, I g2g cause I gotta leave for school. post a comment
Hi, sorry I haven't updated in a while. Like I said before, my bastard guidance councelor had livejournal blocked off the school computer, so I'm stuck here updating at 6:30 in the morning. I've been really depressed lately. And I ended up cutting myself more. It's just that life never seems to get better here. I keep fighting with my mom, and all I ever have time to do is homework and play practice. I never see my boyfriend that much since the end of the trip. Now, my guidance councelor is sending me on really long errands every day, and I think he's just trying to keep me off the internet, and I'm mad cause, yeah he knows me pretty well, but I don't wanna be treated like his daughter. I wish he'd leave me alone for just a few days. That and this stupid teacher won't stop staring at Ricky while he eats his lunch, and I think the guy's gay. I'm also really sick of seeing spring break on MTV while it's still 30 degrees outside here. I honestly can't remember the last time I saw the sun. And, another thing is that the whole school thinks I had sex with Carl, which I never did, so everyone thinks I'm a slut. And, I don't know what to do with myself. I just wanna die. There's nothing left for me in this stupid life. I just want everything to get better, just this once. TBC... post a comment
Ok, well, me and Ricky went on the Choir trip this weekend, and it was nothing short of awesome. In short, we saw a play, went swimming (the pool was 12 feet deep, and I like hyperventilated, but Ricky promised not to dunk me as long as I didn't stare at any onther guys, but he dunked me in the shallow end anyway ^_^ I love him),and ice skating (me and Ricky fell on top of each other...hmm ^_^ ),and we made out a lot...in a church. Heh heh. However, the ppl at the church were really nice and it was a total culture shock from being here at home. I wanna go back, dammit. Anyway, I've got more work for school now. And two days ago, I told off a substitute teacher cause she blamed Ricky for something that was a total accident. She didn't see what happened, and I did, but she just turned around and started screaming, and I screamed back, so she shut up. Heheh. Damn straight. Oh, yeah, and the parental controls blocked out this site at school, so my updates are probably gonna be cut down to once a week or less. I dunno. Maybe someone has the password. On the bright side, Ricky and I are going to a school dance on Friday night. Yay. Now, I g2g get ready for school/the hell hole. TBC... post a comment
Sorry for not updating for a while, but in order to go on the choir trip this weekend, I get to miss school on Friday which means that I have to get all my assignments done before hand. Plus, my school just started its third trimester, and I have this hellish litterature class. And I have to take it cause it's for some god-awful reason required-and the teacher is a fucking bitch. I HATE LITTERATURE WITH A BURNING PASSION. Why can't it be a required biology class instead. It's not like I'm ever gonna use this shit. Anywayz, yeah I REALLY need this weekend. It's gonna be so awesome. We even get to go swimming (^_^). Although, I'm kinda scared cause I have a huge fear of water deeper than like 7 feet, and I don't wanna look like an idiot in front of my friends if it's one of those pools where they give scuba lessons and it's like 30 feet deep. Makes me shiver just thinking about it. Well, g2g to that goddamned litterature class. Bye. TBC... post a comment
I'm bored, and I already got sent down to the elementary school in the snow this morning. Gene Watkins, you are the stupidest super-intendent ever. Why the hell can't you give us a snow day. Winter's almost over and we've only had one. Anywayz, there's a blood drive at school today, so me and Ricky are freaking out cause we both have a huge fear of needles. So, we're staying as far away from the gym as possible. Of course, I don't have to worry cause I'm four pounds under the legal limit to donate blood. Oh my god, poor Ricky. He was soooooo depressed last night, so I tried to make him happy, but I still don't think he's in the best of moods. I LOVE YOU, RICKY. Feel better, baby! TBC... post a comment
Well, once again, nothing is going on. I'm bored as hell, and my life is getting increasingly hectic. My French teacher is giving us more and more work, and the trimester ends after school tomorrow, so I've decided to give up on that course. I'm most likely gonna end up in a classroom over the summer whether I like it or not, so there's no point in trying. 30 years from now, no one's gonna give a shit whether you got in the top ten of your class or not. I mean, I'm number 6 right now, so I don't think I'll fall too far. Hey, it was my mom's dream, not mine. I couldn't care less one way or the other. Aaaaaanywayz, oh my god, last night was awesome. I told my parents that I had play practice a 1/2 hour early, and I snuck over to Ricky's in my car...and we made out in his bedroom on his couch/bed. And, I have a HUGE hicky on my stomach which I've named, "the mark of Ricky." Too bad it wasn't in the shape of a P or I could call it "the mark of the Peccato" (for those of you who dunno-it is one of the symbols of a fallen angel). Also, I'm not getting a tattoo with a skull anymore. Instead, I'm getting a pentagram with four swords through it making an eight point star. Heh heh. Yeah, that'll be awesome. Ricky likes the idea. He might get one as well-only he's getting a bleeding heart. He drew it for me yesterday. He said that if he gets it, its main purpose will be to get me to stop cutting, which is REALLY seet of him. Sigh-just 8 more days til the choir trip. Now, I g2g. TBC... post a comment
Hi, I'm bored...again. But the funniest thing happened yesterday. My guidance councelor bitched at me for looking at tattoos on the internet while I was in here, heh heh. And, yeah, I am getting a tattoo when I'm in college, so get the hell over it. Ha ha! Yeah, I wanna get a skull and cross bones with two swords thru it so it looks like a Satanic star, and it's gonna be on my shoulder. I might get my belly button pierced as well, but that's not til college. Cause I still have to stay here for another two years. Alas. There's gotta be some way outta staying here. But oh well. Hey, you are not gonna believe this, but I'm allowed going on the choir trip next weekend, and Ricky's going too. I'm so happy. M mom has refused to let me go on any school trip previous to now cause she's afraid I'm gonna die or something. Oh my god, get this, she wouldn't let me go to Paris with the rest of my history class last year cause my last name is noticeably Jewish (cause my dad is Jewish) and I guess she didn't want the supposed terrorists to kill me first. Let's face it ppl, if the plane gets hi-jacked, you're screwed whether you're Jewish or not. Speaking of which, most of the Jews that my dad knows are pretty cool, so I think I night actually convert to Messianic Judaism-just so I can still believe in Jesus cause I'm kinda scared not to-yeah, I don't really wanna go to hell. Yeah, I got this saying off a keychain at spencer's and it fits me perfectly. Heaven doesn't want me, and hell's afraid I'll take over. Anyway, so does that mean I'm gonna be stuck in purgatory. Hmm...OK ^_^ That's cool. Well, I'm gonna go read some fanfictions, so see ya. TBC... post a comment
Hi once again. Yesterday was hell, but today is a lot better. But back to yesterday, I didn't get the chance to bitch about it, so here goes. Ok, I already mentioned that thing with the asshole...er I mean teacher in the hallway. 1st period sucked cause I got B's on two papers that I wanted A's on, and then my 3rd period class consisted of essays while in 5th period, I found out that we're not having a certain quiz that I could've easily aced to bring my grade up. After that, my mom got mad at me, and I almost wrecked my car...twice. Let's put it this way, if I hadn't slammed my foot on the gas, I would most likely be dead right now. And then, I had a really long pllay practice, and it started snowing really bad, and we didn't even get a snow day, even though it's once again cold enough to instantly feeze upon walking outside. Alas. Ok, now I think it's time that I mention the bet I made with my mom because right now, I'm basing my life around it and it's driving me insane. I might've mentioned it before, but I can't remember, and the goddamned parental controls on the school's computers won't let me into my entry page. Anywayz, if I get straight A's all year, I'm allowed to get another piercing. I already have my ears pierced twice, and I wanna get a third hole in my left ear-it's an Angel Sanctuary thing. That and my mom has both of her ears pierced twice and it's part of my plot to be nothing like her. But, the whole thing with my grades is getting resolved. I night have no choice but to get an A- in French III, so my mom said that I could still get a piercing if I got straight A's the rest of the year and if I took a class over the summer at the college. Remember a few entries ago when I was bitching about that, well it will be worth it even if being in "school" over the break will be a living hell. But, I can't describe in words how much I really want that piercing, so I will play along with my mom/Lucifer's reincarnation's evil plots. Ya know, I actually shouldn't call her Lucifer's reincarnation, cause in Angel Sanctuary, Lucifer's pretty damn cool ^_^ heh heh heh. I love being goth. Anywayz, the new bet solved a lot of yesterday's problems, and the last day of the trimester is Friday, so I just gotta keep my grades up for the rest of the week. Ok well, that's it for now. TBC... post a comment
Yeah, honestly, I could really cry right now. I am at school and once again I don't wanna be here. It's snowing...AGAIN! Yeah, and get this-this asshole teacher yelled at me for saying hi to him this morning because I disrupted his all important and holy job of hall monitoring. Hell, hall monitoring is just so fucking important that I think that God just might've appointed these all holy archangel teachers to it because it's so damned drastic. So, I've come to the conclusion that I'm no longer going to be nice to anyone at this hell hole with the exceptions of Ricky and my friends. I mean every freakin day, I try to be nice to these ppl, and no one appreciates it. Just cause it's polite, I usually greet most of the ppl that walk down the hall while secretly thinking "I hate you with a bloody freaking passion." So, yeah my days of being a pleasant person are over. Graduation is three months from yesterday, and then I solemnly swear never to see any of these assholes ever again for the rest of eternity. And if the guidance councelor makes me walk down to the goddamned elementary school in the snow one more fucking time, I swear I'm gonna kill myself. Especially if the goddamned secretary bitches at me again about signing in. I figure, hell, they just hate me cause I'm goth, but I dunno. I HATE THIS GOD-FORSAKEN PLACE!!! I kinda wish I was one of those students who's constantly getting into trouble cause then, I wouldn't care. I just wanna run as fast as I can out of this school and see how far I get before someone calls the cops. But, that won't work cause it'll just cause more problems. Well, I'm gonna go mourn over myself for a while, so I will most likely update again tomorrow. TBC... post a comment
Oh yes, it's another depressing and boring day in extremely cold Ohio. Only difference between yesterday and today is now my mom and I are fighting, well kinda. She's so freaking dead set on me taking a class this summer to get a head start on college. And personally, I don't think she has any room to talk. She's already forcing me to live at home for the next two years since I start college at the community college in the fall. So since it's like ten minutes away, I get to live with my parents like I've been doing for the past 17 years and as usual have absolutely no life. I mean, so far, I get to stay in a dorm or an apartment after that, but, let's face it, the next two years are going to be a continuation of my previous and current hellish life. The bottom line: I DO NOT GET ALONG WITH MY MOM-NEVER HAVE, NEVER WILL!!!! She is the religious version of the reincarnation of Lucifer who thinks that she is God. Well, no that would be blasphemy which is against her religion, but anyway. She wants me to take a class during the summer and well...OH HELL NO!!! I've had to deal with summer homework for my AP classes for the past two summers, and I'm going to have to take classes during the summers that I'm enrolled at JCC cause they're required. So, for the love of God, give me one summer where I can sit on my ass and do absolutely nothing. PLEASE!!! I'm already going to be getting a job this summer so I can get some cash and hopefully buy a car sometime soon, so I don't have to keep driving my parents' car to school and college. And I sure as hell don't feel like spending my summer in a classroom listening to some dumb ass teacher. So, when I get home, I'm going to tell my mom everything with cuss words included, so maybe, just maybe, she'll listen to me just this once and maybe she'll quit acting like the dictator of my life. I mean I actually had to force her to go shopping with me last night at the mall. Yeah, she dictates my life, but she doesn't pay any attention to me since my grandma's sick (she's got Alzheimers disease plus Myelodisplastic Syndrome-long story). I love my grandma and all, but my mom spazzes over her like you wouldn't believe. I mean sometimes she needs to spaz but she totally ignores me cause she's always wanted to be just like her mom. And that's part of the problem. My grandma wanted to be exactly like my great-grandma, my mom wants to be exactly like my grandma, and my mom expects me to want to be exactly like her when I turned out more like my dad. And I'll be honest, I wanna be more like my dad-mainly cause he's not a religious zealot. Anywayz, I gotta go cause I think it may be time for me to try and find a psychiatrist or check myself into an institution or something. Just kidding, but sometimes it seems like a really good idea. Anyway, urm...whatever. TBC... post a comment |
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